Mom

I believe Mothers are the best persons in this world. And my mom is super best! Ever since I was small till now she always and always makes me feel that I am good and worthy of a person. Now as a mom myself, I've come to appreciate her more and understand everything she has done for me and my brother. She's just being a mom. Oh, she's not just a mom, but a working mom, which to me sounds redundant. She's not just a mom. She's a grandmother too. A pretty grandmother. A spoiling grandmother, not just with Yllac but still to me and my brother. Thank you mom. You're always the one I hurry to when I'm with good news or bad. You are my home. There's no one like you. There's nothing like your mommy-hug. Miss you Mom and Happy birthday. Happy 53!

Not So Boring Taupe

Happy Friday everyone! 

top: Refill

skirt: custom-made

"Rowena" booties available at Shoe Etiquette

ring: Sm Accessories

bangles: bought from a vendor in Subic

DIY Metal Toe Cap

I love that fuzz free shoes is finally making a comeback. But of course it's not a good comeback without a twist ei? And i just love pointy heels with those cute tipped toes. And this Zara heels is my favorite. Since I have no Zara budget, I made one from Shoe Etiquette's Lisa heels. 

Is This Pretty Or What?

...this is probably my favorite Threadsense moodboard ever. Those butterflies were made of vinyl records. Pretty cool ei! These photos made me want to be 18 again, back in my old tiny room and yes, you read my mind, cover my walls and ceiling with butterflies. But sad to say, i have three boys for roommates now so this is not gonna happen.

Hot and Cold and Colds

Yllac and I are fighting a nasty cold for days now. Yllac won his battle and looks like this cold pinned me down so good I can't get up. I hate sick days. I hate that last week's weather was so weird. Humid hot for the first half of the day and suddenly out of nowhere here comes the rain for the rest of the day. Hot + cold, what do you get? Coldsss. Thank God Jayson doesn't get sick. I love him more because of that. 

Thank you so much for all the loving and touching messages and emails you sent me regarding my baby koffy. And also for sharing your pet stories with me. They made me cry, but after a good cry, it took all that heaviness in my heart. Miraculously after writing this blog, he ate the next day. Am sorry if I made you somehow sad. I guess am that desperate to beg for people's prayers. And thank you for praying for him. I want you to know that it worked. I know this won't be the last of the many episodes concerning his health but am more at peace now and yeah, I need to stop being sad about all these. Koffy has brought so much joy and love in our lives and he's a blessing to everyone who knows him and I need to focus more on that. Ill take every single day at a time and always remember (because i tend to take matters into my own hands most times) that God is in control of everything.

God bless, take care.

A Huge Chunk Of My Heart Is Sad For A While Now

Koffy's been sick for the last 6 months now. And it's been half a year that my heart is aching for this beautiful creature. I find it hard to talk about him and his whole condition without thinking of the negative possibilities. Jayson and I are doing our best to take care of him and we've come to a point of not talking about Koffy anymore but just to do our routine to keep him strong and happy. 

Koffy's gone blind now. 

And I've been crying since then. It's so hard not to. His beautiful brown eyes turned into a lifeless sad color of gray a couple of weeks ago due to his liver disease. He's taking so much medication. So much I don't think his body can take them anymore. It just breaks my heart on those nights I hear him cry. We'd hug him and pray for him. I want him to live forever. He's a dog, my dog, he's sweet. If he's a person, he'd be perfect. We love him so much. Maybe I am being selfish here, or I'm stupid not to think that dogs don't live long like humans do. Maybe that's his only fault - his life is short. Maybe if God favors me he'd make him see again and give him twenty more years. I know I'm asking too much but that's all I can do right now, to ask for so much more. And please if you're reading this, say him your prayers of healing. And if it's not too much, pray for me too, to have a big strong heart to accept graciously what's to come. 

Please...

Thank you.

Because, I'm kind of broken lately. And i feel that it's not good for my family.

Yllac and Clifford, Bible Reading Buddies

We're not perfect parents. We're not close to one, and we will never be. Ever! We make mistakes raising Yllac (am a tell you parenting is H-A-R-D), but God knows we're trying our very best. As long as he's happy and healthy I think we're doing a great job. Lately it dawned on me the responsibility of raising this baby boy that someday will grow up to be a man.  Someone kind, responsible, smart,  honest, strong, brave, non-judgmental, God fearing, loyal, trustworthy, hardworking, happy, loving and confident. It's such a big task. Again I am nervous and overwhelmed thinking of these and somehow I felt not worthy for this job. I am not a good influence ( i know for sure), not a role model. But right now I am just glad that he's mine and I am his Mommy. That I am this person right now that has the biggest influence in his life. Someone who will mold him to be the man he's going to be : a good man. But that's just many years from now. Today, this morning i watched him sleep beside Jayson, they're cuddling, his little arms on his Daddy's chest. I look at them and i just love Yllac's sweet chubby cheeks and his lips pursed out. Someday, he'll be big, hair on those cheeks, rougher skin just like Daddy's. And boy I am grateful that I married a good man. While I am not entirely sure how to do this scary parenting thing, I am just glad that the man I chose to marry is the kind of man I want Yllac to be. And that this huge intimidating thing called parenting seem not scary anymore when i look at it now, because Jayson and I get to do it together (gosh! bless those mothers who do it alone). And I just felt God's continues blessings through that and Yllac and I are lucky that way. 

The Purple Evelyn

I never thought that purple and leopard could look good together. This shoes is my first ever purple in my closet. I guess I was scared of this color for such a long time that i never saw the fun with it. 

Anyway, let's talk about the weather shall we? Boy oh boy was it hell hot this week? And I am having a hard time leaving the house because of this heat. And also am having a very difficult time constructing a decent outfit. And to add to that, I seem to be going through a total metamorphosis every summer : my dear big old foot expands all of a sudden and my hair gets huge and frizzy. Every summer it has become a challenge for me dressing up. God knows I will never show my arms. No-oh! These arms will never be summer ready ever! So am planning to hit the thrift store this week (so you think am gonna say gym?) to look for breezy tops and more skirts but then  it's hot and thrift stores here aren't the most comfortable place on earth most especially with this summer heat. So I'm doomed. I remember a friend saying once, when all else fails (your clothes), don't wear anything at all. But that's just a criminal offense. So forget it.

But on a bright side, see the purple top am wearing? I tweaked it a bit by dabbing a piece of cloth with bleach in it. And just dab dab dab. It's still purple but not too purple anymore. And this skirt? It was once a midi, but decided to cut off some of it for a more summer look.

So, tell me, how do you stay covered on days like these? 

 

top:diy

skirt: trhift

"Evelyn" wedges: shoe etiquette   

The Floating Bookstore

Last Friday we drove to Subic Bay to see the largest floating bookstore in the world, the MV Logos Hope.

On Top Of My Head

I am a potato wearing a colorful sack.

Okay bye for now. 

But look! I finally wore my Mimi flats. She's a peach. Real nice and pretty.

Our weekend will officially start tomorrow. So that means more sleep for me and Yllac got to have his Daddy all by himself for the next three days and of course, of course, I get to have my dear sweet husband too for the next three days. Jayson is a real superhero. I feel safe when he's around. Oh, I love our weekends.

I hope you're all having an amazing week. Have fun!

I Finally Went To Posh Nails

 

Confession: I've never been to real nail spa. c",) I guess when you reached the age of 32 and made that confession, it's kind of a little embarrassing right? Plus the fact that you're a girl and never without a manicure since you were 18, that's double embarrassing.

Shoe Etiquette's Anniversary Collection

Hiyyah!

Here are some of the anniversary collection of my beloved shoe store i've just uploaded tonight/morning? (it's 12:30am here). if you have time please check them out here. And one more favor id like to ask of you, could you please share these pretty shoes to your friends??? Thank you, thank you and Thank you so much.

Now my bed looks so dreamy to me and am ready to cuddle. Goodnight everyone. Dream of these shoes will yah?

Happy Birthday!

For my 32nd birthday, all I ever wanted is a big-juicy-fat-meaty crab. Swear, that's all i want. But then my dear sweet husband insisted we do a birthday week which started last Monday by doing all the things i want. Obviously i asked for sleep and ice cream and cupcakes and lot's of coffee (in any time of my liking) and a McDonald's quarter pounder at any meal of the day i want. So you see, I am a very very happy girl. Then the day after my birthday, my dear sweet husband surprised me with a cake and a balloon. So yeah, what more can I ask for right? But that's not the end of it. You see, you're all so generous of your time to greet me through twitter, facebook, emails and text messages and calls. I am loved beyond my imagination. Thank you so much. To everyone; whether just chancing upon this blog for the first time or dedicated internet friend from the beginning, thank you, thank you, and thank you! I definitely appreciate the comments, 'likes', follows, love and of course... hate-mail and a couple of angry comments (even the angry birds take some effort in letting me know how much I suck, hehe)! A simple 'thank you' will never be enough so if I can help in any way, please let me know.You have no idea how much you've been a huge source of blessing to me. Thank you so much. There's nothing I could ask for, for I have my family always here with me. My baby is a happy, healthy one. Koffy is doing exceptionally well and doing a good recovery from his recent health scare. My super generous mom and dad and my brother, even though we're far far far away from each other, I sure know they're in such good caring hands of our maker. So am at peace here. I guess that's all i ever ask from the God above, peace and love. And it's been two years that I am practicing my day and night job as a "Mom". Am good. Am good. And last but never the least, the man of my dreams, the man i asked from God, his name starts with H and ends with u-s-b-a-n-d. (am i corny or whuuut?)  My husband....i love and adore, my husband so patient with me and loves me and spoils me rotten good ever since the day we met. My husband! I love calling him that. Husband, I love you so much. 

Oh gosh! I love getting old. It gets only better and better am a tell you.

32 Today!!!!

Shoe Etiquette Winner Announcement

Congratulations Mikhaela De Leon! Yey! Pls email me at harukijayden@yahoo.com to claim your Evelyn.

Have a wonderful day everyone.

I Am The Opposite of Camouflage

I am in no position to give advice to anything. So it's always fascinating to receive emails asking me for some. And i believe that i suck at giving advice but if there's one i can say right now regarding mood swings caused by some unfortunate events in life... when those things keeps on creeping in you, i say wear more color to combat all those ugly episodes. The more I am stressed about something, the more colorful i want to appear. No shame. 

skirt: custom-made

boots: make me chic

top: gift

bag: thrift

Preach!

Happy weekend everyone! 

This little boy of mine huh? such a sport running around and getting into everything. Everything and anything. And i think he's gonna be an artist of some kind someday. Artist of mimicking animal sound and the train too. But mostly cows and roosters. Very cute. You know, am into all cute things. And I just love seeing him develop his personality. Some came from me and mostly from his Daddy and a little bit from Grandma and Grandpa. Well babies aren't exact science. They're complicated but real cute. But you know, am his mom. He's probably the only cutest thing ever out there. Gosh, I have become that kind of mom.

We Love Smile, Color Yellow and Finger Eating

yes we do!

Life Lately....

all photos taken via instagram

been thinking about "time" in general a lot these days. It's so fast i cant cope with it. Night after night after putting yllac to bed, i look at him and my heart swells of love and joy and it's a bittersweet feeling to see him grow so fast. One day he won't fit inside his plastic toy box anymore, or in his basin or in the sink......these thoughts are pinching my heart.

Having Yllac in our lives taught me to cherish every moment and see in my heart of hearts what really matters most in this lifetime - family, relationship, friendship. Everything else is just everything else.