Ch ch ch ch ch ch Changes

This is long...I miss him. 

I really HATE it (before and now) when people say to me things are gonna change between you and Jayson once you get married. Blame it on Judith McNaught but i believe in fairy tales and happily ever after. With all my heart I prayed for that one perfect man for me. God listened to me and he gave me Jayson, whom I knew since high school. Then after two years of dating we  decided to get married. I may sound unreal but he hasn't changed a bit. 

For the past weeks now, am having this weird waking up hours, like three or four in the morning and am just so hungry. Am not sure what to call that marriage connection but once i wake up, minutes later he'll be awake too, then he'll automatically massage my back and my hips with his eyes still closed. And after a while he'll ask me, "gugutom ka?" (are you hungry?). Id nod and still half asleep he'll get me a sandwich or a fruit. He'll go back to sleep while am eating while his foot giving me a leg massage. 

He's always been that way. Always there for me. Even before we got pregnant, he almost always does everything for me, which sometimes I feel bad cos I can't do anything without him anymore. He knows everything I need even before i asked for it. And every day I thank God for him. He is my best. I don't know anything about marriage and how to make it last, but I guess the only secret to a marriage is to think of your husband as the most wonderful person in the world, and your wife the best woman in the world and NO ONE ELSE.  That happiness and love is real when you're together. And literally you cannot live without each other.  

Marriage is a good thing. It unites you and makes you official, but certainly did not change our relationship. It gave us even more freedom to grow, to make decisions, and to somehow understand together the complicated circumstances we encounter as we go on. I like the fact that we're already planning our trips twenty years from now. My husband is a dreamer. And Id like to listen to his fantasies and imaginations. It makes me continue to hope for all the things we want in life. 

Realistically speaking I know things are already changing. One for certain is his hair. But I think he's still suuuper cute. Since Koffy inherited his looks already, I wish our baby would look like him too. Why? Cos I wanted to be constantly reminded of how God is so good to me.

We're gonna be parents this December. And that is the kind of change I desperately want. Am grateful it's finally happening.