I Love Shoes. I Really Do.

I love shoes. We all love shoes. Can you imagine my silent shriek when i found this blazer? 

i.love.thrifting.

And thank you for all the birthday messages. Every year I am looking forward to my birthday, proudly share my number so i can extort people gifts and compliments. c",) And it feels nice when people greet me and wish me good things. When it comes to age, the higher number you get the better because that's an obvious sign that God's blessing is apparent in your life. He is letting us live more. I now know the meaning of a birthday - It is when you get braver and boldly do all the things you secretly wanna do. Shouldn't be phenomenal, just things important to you. As for this year, I want to take pleasure in seeing Yllac sit on his own, take his first bite, see him grow a tooth, take him somewhere new, finally meet my parents and plan for his first birthday. Maybe buy a family van, buy more shoes, thrift more, buy more plates and colorful mugs. Maybe write again, using a pen and paper this time. Read more, meet more friends, go back to the gym and eat less meat.

Oh and I wanna smile more and be more happy and not think about what other people think of me.

Thank you! Okaybuhbyethatsall. 

blazer: thrift

tiered jumsuit: Genevieve Gozum

shoes: Urban Original

Stay At Home

It was never known to me the amount of guilt a mom feels whenever she's about to leave her child to someone else's care until today. It's like leaving a peace of your heart somewhere far away from you. You don't feel complete and your mind travels back home ahead of you. 

We're supposed to go out today. Just me and my husband for a real date for the first time since we became parents. Yllac's more than 8 weeks young now and we're so lucky to have some help in our home whom we can entrust Yllac with. She's not a nanny. (Okay she's Koffy's nanny actually) But she's been with us since the fourth month of my pregnancy, when it became too difficult for me to perform all my household duties. I thank God for her because she's a trustworthy person, she's nice and I really love her. I've been training/familiarizing her with my son for the last two months and since Yllac is a lot bigger now I let her baby sit him in the afternoon for a little while. And I can tell, she's always looking forward to it. I don't know, but one thing is for sure, I am a jealous mom. c",)

So today, everything was set for our much awaited date. I've prepared everything for Yllac before we leave. We're not gonna be out for long, max is 3 hours, and by then Yllac will be asleep. I keep on convincing myself that He won't even notice that we're gone. Then i received a text from husband confirming our dinner date but I replied - NO, we can't, not for tonight. I just can't. Am not ready yet. Maybe ill wait for another month? Am not really sure why but am torn. I feel guilty over something I am not even sure what it is. Is there a mother out there? Please tell me this is normal. 

So this is my dress, supposedly for tonights date. Was planning on curling my hair, but since the date didn't push through i put it up again on my usual mommy hair do.

Today I've learned something about myself. Am really in that zone now. I have become a full time mom. 

dress: Jenevieve Gozum

shoes: Go Jane

ps,

i salute all my working mom friends and to all working mommies in the world, who works outside their homes and still do all the work at home. I know it is hard. Because ALL mothers are working mothers. Hooray!   

 

The Sunrays

Expect the best. Every night before i rest to sleep I pray for another good day. But some days just don't go according to plan. It's long been speculated that optimistic people live longer, healthier lives. That being said, i feel like dying today. Just today, this hour. Now it's been suggested that one person's optimistic outlook can actually improve the outlook for another person too. Since I don't want to take you down with me, I'll try to see the bright side of today. Like this shoes. It's clean, it's bright, it's comfortably high , it's lightweight and it's very pretty. Okay . Snap. Optimism is back. I know, the shoe is a temporary remedy but it does the trick. 

Take care everyone. Wishing you all a very lovely day.

dress: Genevieve Gozum

wedges: Urban Original 

clutch: Sm Department Store

necklace: Quiapo

Earrings: Thank you Abhie