Yllac Says...

(it's close to midnight and we just gotten home, and while my eyes just want to shut down, I was on the floor putting Yllac on his pajamas. I don't know about you, but in times like these, I can only use my high-nagging-mama-voice, "Yllac please stay still!!!")

Yllac: "Mama, calm down..."

Three-ish am...

Today was good. We didn't plan on sleeping at 7 in the evening but it just happened. Next thing I know I was punched in the face by no other than Yllac. He didn't mean it. He was asleep. And now, I had finished a bowl of instant vegetable noodle soup and just took out fresh warm blankets from the laundry machine. I just had to wrap my arms around those snugly warm sheets before folding them, because it felt good. 

Today is Friday and it's the start of the weekend. I am looking forward to a lot of sleep and getting more laundry done because it's eid holiday here and we get to have a week off. I hope to see our friends and send one particular officemate off - sort of a farewell-and-goodluck-ikea-meatballs-dinner tonight. Also, looking forward to Ikea. Because, it is the faaaareaking Ikea. 

So, to complete this blog post, here are some photos taken weeks ago, some humid nights ago. 

Happy weekend folks! 

 

Right Now...

There are so many little things in my life that i love about where I am right now. Nothing major. Just simple things. Good things. I know, some days are horrible and you just want that day to be over, but some days, it just feels so "perfect". It's like, I just want to pause everything and just stay here for a while. Just like these days.

For example, Yllac has become an absolute blabby hoot these couple of weeks. I love that he is talking now. Thank God. We've all been waiting for him to talk, and now that he is talking I am even more crazy about him. It was like, flicking a switch and he just goes on and on and on. Some I get, most, I just don't. It's like seeing a miracle, how our DNAs have made another human being, and this small human being that we get to mold. I don't know how to put it.... I guess it's an honor and a blessing to rule over somebody's life???! Okay, sounds crazy, but in real sense, it is overwhelming to be a parent. I can't speak for Jayson, but as a mom, I hope i don't break Yllac in any way. Or maybe I will. 

Two days ago, Yllac was taking a bath. After washing him I let him stay awhile inside the water bucket (half his size) while Jayson and I was also inside the bathroom and talking. Then suddenly Yllac called us, "mama, daddy, please get out..." and motions his hand to the door. It wasn't a command, it's more like a sweet plea. Jayson and I looked at each other, a bit shocked and about to laugh too. So I asked Yllac, why? He points to the door again and said the same thing, "pleeeeeease go out, out, out, out". So we rushed out, and closed the door a bit and I heard him say "thank you, see you later guys". Jayson and I was like, "what just happened there?", He is three and a half years old. Just three and a half!!!! So every other minute we would go and check him and everytime he sees us, "oh no!, close the door please."

So, anyway I am feeling a little rusty. My blogging mojo has not come back yet. There's a little spark of energy here and there, so let me take my time. So I hope to make it up to you by bombing this post with photos I've collected lately....

Here goes,

YUP! That is all for now. 

A Little Change...

Hi you. It's me again Denise. I know it's been too long. Soooo here goes...

I will start by saying, change is good. It's always scary at first, and riveting, sometimes you will lose a night's sleep or two. While I love being a mom and a wife, personally I needed change and growth, and I want some sort of change in my life now. For a while I felt like, the daily routine of chores and family activities came to feel very samey. I don't want a big change. I enjoy my life with my two boys just the way it is, but when things felt a little comfortable, too comfortable, with the small part of my world that I see everyday, the challenge is completely gone. Little did I know, my comfort-zone was slowly working against me.

I have been working at my home for the last couple of years. (some of you are aware of my two little on-line shop) It's a "glamorous job", working from home, mostly from my bed while doing all sorts of things of a stay at home mother. I get to be in my jammies all day. It was okay, but it could get painful in the back and could get lonely sometimes. And silent. So so silent. And those jammies needed to retire. But finally (yes FINALLY!), a couple of months ago, I was able to get a job here, just a couple of minutes from our home, also near where Yllac goes to school and Jayson's work too. Just like I told you, nothing of a big shift from where I am right now. But It's such a great change to work around people, especially such nice people. I feel really lucky here.

This photo was from last April because we just didn't get around to picking up the camera the past few months since moving here. (my hair is short now too) But you know, one less instagram of photo here and there ;) Can't help it really. These days we were just so grateful to spend each day with each other. I cannot imagine myself going through another year without Jayson with me even for just a couple of months. Those six months away from him feels like a decade. I am just happy now, so so happy to be together as a family of three, enjoying every little thing we have, but always so big on celebration for days of togetherness, and late night drive around this little city, a trip to the playground, and our silly toddler literally growing everyday before our eyes. Sometimes we just couldn't help but look around and think, gosh is this the best or what? I treasure this life we've been given to live. Its ups and downs, and the joy that can be found in the smallest moments of everyday.

This blog is on radio silence for the longest time until now. I guess I just needed to take a long pause to actually live life. That makes a lot of sense for me these days. 

Today, I mostly wanted to say thank you so much for being here and letting me share this small portion of my life with you. You've always been kind to me in countless ways. 

Cheers!  

ps, I cannot believe how nervous I am to press the "publish" button. Oh, gosh, who have I become?