me - the baby, together with my aunts and my late grandpa
I was once a baby yah know? Shout out to my son - Yllac, I am your mother.
Two days ago i turned 34. Two days ago I was simply thankful. Thankful to God for bringing me this far. The past year have been a mixed bag, I've been happier than I've ever been, and I've been in my saddest than ever too. But in all things I am grateful, knowing every year of my life is a journey and I'm still on the road, just going and going. Wherever life leads me.
And ever since my birthday I've been sort of feeling a lot of ..... feelings. I guess that happens to all of us every year on our birthdays. You're all upbeat simply because It's your day. You get to treat yourself a little special because, ehem, it's your day. You also get to eat more than you usually do. You get pampered. You feel extra loved. But our birthdays wouldn't feel special without our special someones. My someone this year, who is physically with me, yah know, that someone you love who is in a couple of radius from where you are, happen to be my husband and my son. The night before my birthday Yllac sang me "Just The Way You Are" by Bruno Mars. He nailed all the last word of each phrase of the song. But when he held my cheeks with his hands along with the lines "when I see your face".. man I choked up. And when Jayson surprised me 5 times within the last two days, my heart and my vocal pipes almost burst. He is getting pretty good at
lying surprise this year. For a person to make that effort to the point of almost killing you, it must have been love. You know I mean??? Our birthdays remind us of all the things we have that we may sometimes take for granted. Sometimes I forget to thank the people who make my life so happy in so many ways, and I forget to tell them how much I do appreciate them being a huge part of my life. This is the first time in my entire life to celebrate my birthday in a foreign country, and for that, it's not that hard to miss a lot of people. And for the first time in my life I remember each one of them and how much I love them.
I love them this BIG!
Up to my scalp!
So i thank every single one of them, to you who loved and cared, you made my heart go fonder when I'm sad. You made me feel important, on days i feel like I'm a blah. You showed me true friendship. And most of all, you made me feel like i was worth it. So so worth it.
So 34 huh? All I wanted for my birthday is another birthday next year, and maybe a year after that, and after that. Could be really fatal in the long run, but I love having birthdays. Who doesn't? Every year I get to have new hopes and new dreams. Some of them may come true, and some don't. But that's the great thing about birthdays, you get to have new wish every year. Your faith becomes stronger, and there's always something to look forward to.
I have a feeling that 34 is a great number.