Just So You Know, I am Yours To Keep 4ever

There are nights I just couldn't sleep. Tossing and turning and staring up the ceiling bores me to death. It's not about the coffee i took three hours before bedtime. Am sure bout that. It's those thoughts that boggles my mind. I sometimes worry. But all those worries disappear soon as my cold feet felt my husband's warm foot. It never fails to calm me down. If there's only one thing that scares me now is the thought of what if i never met my husband, what if we didn't get married? My life has no Yllac for sure. I am unloved, restless and no home, and miserable and angry. And last night that thought shook my very core once again. Every little bump and hiccup and struggle suddenly didn't bother me anymore because i know, my man and i will always figure everything out. With him, we always figure out. With him, i love my life just the way it is. 

So every time some dark thoughts begin to over power me, all i need to do is to feel his foot. His warmth is God's way of saying you don't need to worry, or for a more understandable phrase for a dummy like me : shut up girl, i gave him to you didn't I? I am sure that God made his point to me very clear when Jayson first messaged me back in the summer of 2004, back in the day to a book sale trip we made, back in the day when we became friends, back in the day when we start to like and fall in love and talk for 26 hours a day, back in the day when we first kissed, when we can't stand the day not seeing each other anymore, back in the day we got married... that's a clear message that i will never be alone for the rest of my life. So worry not, I have Jayson. And he have me too. Forever and ever.