Where My Heart Is

Motherhood is complex. It is by far the most amazing thing that's happened to me and the most challenging, patience-inducing, back breaking situation I've ever been. I can't imagine my life now without my Yllac. And it is heartwarming to finally say, now that i am experiencing it, how a human body is the greatest of all machine, and how big a human heart is for all the love it gives and the continuously growing love it creates. Taking care of a baby is no easy task. Am.A.Tell.You. Your day starts even before the worms of the earth were awake. Even before the sun starts to yawn you're already on your feet talking to the littlest person in the world. And that's always a great way for starter. Then you do all the routine with an 8 kilo baby in your arms. Sometimes the baby's in the good mood. Sometimes not. They say when your baby's asleep you have to sleep to. But how can you, if that's the only time you got your hands free to do all the house work. Are they for real? I really don't get that. And everyday, changes are happening. Yllac's reaching for everything now. He's eating everything too. And oh, he giggles. Major giggling that's music to my ear. Sometimes I wanna stop time and let everything stay the way they are forever. I don't want him to grow up. I want him forever in my arms. I want him forever little. Like I am the only person in his life, and the one and only person he need.

Selfish, but I am his momma and he is mine. c",)