May 1, 2011

At The End Of The Day


My baby boy woke up on the wrong side of the crib. He was grumpy all day. He misses his daddy. And I miss the baby-daddy even more. I love being a mom. I love seeing Yllac scream with joy. But today he screams for every little thing that irritates him. And it went all day long. To tell the truth, between the dancing, singing and baby talking, it is exhausting. It's funny because the smallest person in our home calls the shot these days. Yllac pretty much rule everything. Where to go, what to do, what to watch, when to speak with sound and some more baby issues we wouldn't understand. To sum up my day, honestly it was bad. But I know tomorrow is gonna be a happy day. Babies are just like that. I've learned not to take everything personally when Yllac doesn't seem to like me. I've learned to sing with gusto regardless how bad my throat hurts. I've learned to dance and sing for my boy's entertainment that even after my special number he's still frowning at me, id do it over and over again till my back hurts just to see him smile on his sleep.

Being a mom is the best. Nothing can ever top that. It's those little things I do before that's become extra challenging to do now.

And at the end of the day, even though how tiring it is, I just can't go lie in bed. Not just yet. I need to go to this little mysterious place called the internet. In my blog, i find myself again. I need my me time. I have underestimated that phrase too many times before. It is my least favorite word to be honest. Maybe I don't understand it. But now, I really need it. And blogging is my me-time. It is the time of the day where I can just relax. Browsing through beautiful photographs soothes me. Reading inspiring people gives me a whole lot perspective on what to make of me the following day. I love it here. Blogging is good for me.

Now that I am done saying it, it's time for me to take a bath, eat and read till I fall asleep. Because tomorrow is an exciting day. You know what, i know my day isn't as good as i expected it to be first thing in the morning, but I am still looking forward to each day. Simply because life is exciting. And having a baby is the main reason why my life is so exciting now. I am thankful for this day, for a baby that is full of energy and full of mood swings. Oh my, and I will remember this for the rest of my life.

ps, is there a mommy out there. Please talk to me. Pretty pleeeeease.


Anonymous said...

this is what i love about your blog... it doesn't have pretenses. it's not all about the glitters and glamor,but it's how you present your thoughts in such an amusing way that makes us all impressed without really sounding like a brag! am i a typical fan? or just a friend expressing her fondness? both will be fine! hehe!

mathea said...

i have 2 makulit boys. when i had my eldest, it's crazy. it's really crazy being a mom for the first time. when he just turned 1 the shocking news revealed i am having my 2nd baby, imagine me panicking hahah..well, being a mom is hard. it's exciting and it's good. being a mom is like having a ton of emotions. just don't give up blogging, it'll help hehehhe...enjoy!

Sarah A. said...

And I'm gonna raise my hand! I can talk to you any time of the day, though I'm not an expert huh. I'm still a newbie, pero we can exchange and share same thoughts and sentiments..

I wanna listen, I'm good at it. :)

fashioneggpplant said...

relax :) babies can feel it when you're tense and it just makes them even more anxious. also, enjoy it while you still can. they'll be grown and running before you know it. in a few years, tables will start turning and you'll find yourself the one looking for attention from them. my daughter is turning 5 in a couple weeks and already tries her best to act like a "big" girl. the 5 years just flew by me and i miss her being a baby so much! :)


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