sometimes i do wonder if Yllac knows how much big i really love him. Last night i was watching some home videos from the day i gave birth to him, He was being cleaned, he's so tiny and screaming and kicking and so wrinkly. And i love him. I look at him now asking where did my baby go? He's gotten so big and everyday he's showing more and more of his character, and I find myself more in love and happy to be a mommy to this little boy. 2010 gave me a small tiny infant, 2011 gave me a baby, and for 2012 i am having a toddler. It warms my heart just thinking about the exciting times, all the adventures, all the learning, all the love, hugs and kisses for the next 364 days with him this year. I know it's such a cheese to say, but i got everything i need right here in my arms. Every morning is like waking up to a Christmas present only it's an everyday thing for a mom like me.