I am neat. Well, used to be. Being a mom for almost 17 months now, I've learned to let my baby rule the house. See the evidence? I used to follow him around and tidy up every hour, but that's just exhausting. Finally let myself throw in the towel and let all these pretty clutter hang around everywhere the house. They can wait. And hey, this is a home, not an art gallery. c",)
Silly excuse, I know!
Sometimes i find myself so antsy and impatient for this little boy to give in to sleep so i can do my work around our home. Being stay at home doesn't give you a punch card type of working hours. Which is sometimes good. It's my excuse for being lazy am a tell you. But being at home comes with a lot of expectation to do everything in under 24 hours. Which is crazy. You know, keep the baby healthy and breathing, cook, clean and if it's possible, look like you just stepped out of a beauty salon. So my solution is to let things happen in a natural way. I will never push Yllac to sleep fast. (am close to putting a spell on him each time he's fighting sleep, which is every single day) A funny thing though, honestly, everyday, I am wishing for a bedtime to come early, It's my favorite time of the day to get the silence i need, and work and clean. But just when am about put Yllac to bed, I just wanna cuddle and wake him up because I miss him already. Mommies are weird am a tell you.
Seeing these photos make me look at myself and say, well, this is my life now. Toys everywhere, under our bed. Toy car in our toilet , dinosaur in my closet. And am okay with that. Because I love him. Never in my life I imagine myself loving this way. I mean, dinosaur hanging in my closet and car in the toilet? Who gets to have that? I mean, I only got three hours for myself during the day, but am okay with that. The rest of the day is for him. To play, read and laugh and grow.....This is my life now.