Right Now

...when I close my eyes, really really close my eyes, i believe that I am the best wife, - no not just the best wife, but the greatest wife in the world. I am a great cook. There's always food at home. I can make and bake anything my husband want. That my head is filled with recipes and food plan for the whole day. My house is squeaky clean. No dust. No crumble. Everything is organized and placed where it should be.

But then .....

... i open my eyes, our house is a chaos.

I am not a cook. But I know 4 recipes - black adobo, white adobo, adobong tuyo and chicken-pork-adobo-in-one. I wish I am a woman that plans dishes for the whole week. I wish I know how to operate an oven. I wish I did not forgot to buy toothpaste the last time we went to the groceries. But I am an efficient wife because I made the lasts of our toothpaste last for a week. It was paper thin now but we still manage to squeeze some out of it. And am proud of that.

I wish i am good at folding our clothes. Or at least has the patience for it. I wish that my husband's undies and socks don't mix in complete disaster. At least he'd go to his work wearing matching socks. I wish I have the energy to iron all of our clothes right after they were all laundered. I wish i remember where the last time i kept Yllac's hair brush. I wish i have the will power to teach Yllac to teethe on his teether and not on my pinkie.

There are days that I don't feel up to it and there are days that am on fire.

Today is one of those off days but at least I've finally launched my shoe store.

So it's not bad at all.

And oh, have I told you that Yllac is teething now? It's so cute, those little white tooth on his lower gum. I don't know, but those tooth made me feel a bit of accomplishment somehow.

But I know tomorrow, it will be a better day.